It’s What You Do When No One Is Watching

I’m writing to you from the end of my 21 day fast and I can’t say that I’m mad about my decision to go 21 days without alcohol. Going into it, I was of course worried that I wouldn’t make it (see previous post on consistency) or that I would be stuck in the house missing events. I am proud to say that neither of those things happened!!

To be honest the times that I expected to fail were the strongest days that I had. In those 21 days I hosted a birthday party at my house, endured the extended Martin Luther King break we had unexpectedly due to the Houston Blizzard of 2018, and numerous other outing with my friends and I was not tempted. I was perfectly fine drinking my lemon water and reaping the benefits of not having the extra calories added from alcohol. The times I was tempted to grab a drink were the times when I was alone. When no one was watching and no one would know. It was at those times that I had to remember what I was doing it for and it made me think about a lot of the things that we do.

In those moments after a long day of work or when I was stuck in the house for several days by myself because Houston is just not equipped for any form of ice, snow or slush, I had to really resist the urge to grab a glass of wine… It was just going to be one glass…right? Who would know?  I started thinking about other things I do when I’m by myself or when I’m out and think no one is watching and I realized it’s those are the times when we show who we really are, those are the times when our integrity steps in.

Since we are in the age of social media, everybody (me included) posts what they want people to see and we don’t always get the full story or the bigger picture.There are a lot of things that we do that we wouldn’t dare post and I’ not talking about normal things that are unshareable, I’m talking about just living day to day how we treat people and how we behave behind closed doors. I’m talking about when we leave work or around our friends and take our “social masks” off, who are we?

I honestly gained more than I expected going into this fast but the biggest lesson I’ve IMG_1746learned was to live a life of integrity and it will definitely pay off in the long run!